♀ s h a n a d ♀

2010-04-12T19:04:00.000-07:00

I'm back from camp
n now stuck with blogger
i.MISS.y.NOT blogger
5 days 4 nights feel just like a dream
too fast don't even noe wats happening
all dat can be remembered is dat
- delicious n nice food
- fun activities
- laid back camp
- easy going facis
- sweet drinks easily getting
- cute instructors ;}
- ice cream for free
- Jhabooyah....
meaning i love the camp
n a part of me wish to be back in the camp
but another feels staying home
n getting back to my life
is the best place to take comfort
n be just 'who i am'
even then i can't live without a little electronic device
boooo...
n n n guess wat got home from camp was happy enough to be thinking i would be receiving 'a welcome hug or at least a simple i miss u'
but all i get is "u are getting DARKER!!!"
wow where is the love heading too?!
hope dat hunn noes im hoping for dis
rather den those unpleasent mindful greetings

Did some searching with Hajar in the lib
using my lappy
i just realised dat Justin Bieber
is maybe one of the sign of Judgment Day
wallahu ' alam subbhanallah
only god noes which is true
believe it or not
it's not my duty
still i love his songs
but im taking precaution of it
got up serious first but after a while
went looking for nonsensical things
like --- looking for guys
den an hour later
Aishee signed in
so went webcaming with her
double fun hahakz!

Should he be the another one i want a break too? Should i stop being dat unfaithful girl? Should i ask for a break? Should i just take another month to see how things go? Should i tell myself i dont want a bf, i just want an open rel. or be single?
How to leave someone when u noe your heart is with him? How do u leave someone when u noe its hard n dat u are fear of someone leaving u after u are this tight? Even if the next 4 months u are still together how far are u gonna take it too? Will it still be dat sweet n close cuddle or will it be falling apart n exchanging glance of frustration? How are u going to handle it if either one situation comes to u? Am i willing to give in? Should i concentrate in my studies n just forget bout the word bf/gf is wat they call a relationship? Or maybe should i just forget all bout dis n start continuing with wats place on my table top?

Dats wat is in my mind rite now. Impossible to think out of dis. Easily another qns on dis! Take a step back is wat i need. n now currently listening to stuck in the moment by justin bieber

I wish we had another time...
I wish we had another place...

2010-03-17T16:11:00.000-07:00

Ah..... i like yest.
everything was great although some error here n there
but hey best ah
too bad time flies so fast
so since yest was Amalina's b'dae
we prepared a little secret bash party
just for her - baik kan kita
they had plan to do the party in my house
so we waited for her under my block
to bash her
it went out great but she just ran so fast
dat we had to do it outside the corridor of my house
n she was freaking wet with powder all around her
n we bash everyone except for the kids n Hajar
foods, cake den Fathima came
played games, talk bout little relationship issues
den watch the imaginarium of doctor parnasurs
Illuminati berterabuh dlm cerita!

now i feel lil miss gang are getting closer

n i love dat

lets just stay dat way ~ close, happy n fun

n blogger seriously, speechless, it sucks big time

some pics i just can't upload

nonsense

pfft maybe im deleting blogger to somewhere else better

like sugar

Happy b'dae Amalina. Hope u like yest.

i luv u girl! Wish dat u choose someone dat is rite for u.
n alif amacam yok ah jumpa...
Birthdays are good for you. The more you have, the longer you live.
Happpppy b'dae Amalina!

Bocor rahsia'ku...
let's rememba 15 march hunn
i hope u will be a better guy for me
although u noe how much i still miss my ex
u are willing to be patient with it
i will try to luv u n hey i'm starting to feel a little luv
well if u treat me rite i'm gonna luv u to the fullest
now dis is true. I luv U hunn! :>

I lied i said dat i'm gonna focus on studies only

n no relationships dis year

but i end up having one, im sry!

its to hard to be true

maybe the other previous post about puppies love

was absolutely rite

but so wat no ones stopping me (hees )

2010-02-27T08:06:00.000-08:00

I can't seem to understand
dat why in a min i'm so hype up for boys
den in another min i just wanna focus on study more
(haish)
sports day was due yest.
had our class tee
i quite like the design but it was plentiful plain colour
n since i was the first aider
i did not get to be with my own class
such a bore
if i knew i should not have brought my cam
not even a piece of pic from sports day
i was just too busy with the casualties
plus i get to see _____________ for the rest of the day
best!
congrats to 3-6 n the participants esp.
making us proud of 3-6 hees
G-O-O-D JOB!, good job

2010-02-25T19:11:00.000-08:00

' wrong to start a RELATIONSHIP too soon/young

coz all u get is just fake love n plenty of lies

even when u n him are done, he will move along

n leave the memories back to the start ' - puppies love

Will be reposting soon enough! :)

2010-02-20T08:46:00.000-08:00

I prefer dis from all of his vids

2010-02-15T09:14:00.000-08:00

Morning yest. went to sentosa
it was very packed
a very long quene just to take tram
its like the middle of the vivo till
the far end of it
but luckily it was going fast n steady
upon reaching to sentosa
i was being prank ( great )
but its ok
somehow my day started with it
all the excitedness was there
there were alot of banglas
n china people n somekind of philipines
but little did i find malay
n esp. caucasians
i don want to elaborate further on
coz everywhere we go there sure be an adult
no hot guys
not even the cute ones
or maybe the typical type
n since i was very tired i collapse to sleeping 3 times
in a row

On v-day
I did a quiz bout when i will find love n it says
' You'll find love when you stop chasing it. '
its so true n it does make sense too
when i look silly n forget bout love
it will just come to my way
but when i kept thinking/daydream bout love
n even search for dat special someone
it will just stop by to someone else
n pass through me
pfft...
I kept seeing couples with roses
or teddy bears yest.
? meaning
I should have being on a date with him
but den nah...
a date with Raudhah was quite fun
get to speak your mind out
plus i like playing jokes on her

Ok vid time,
dad love dis song very much
' we are the world '

MTV Shows

p.s: I miss u! Lets just get back 2gether.

2010-02-13T10:56:00.000-08:00

' CNY decoration '
ok-ok not so much of enthusiasm put in to
its like everybody were minding their own business
very rushing from the start of decorating
till break
reminds of 1/2-6 plus mr Shah
i miss mr Shah
but still we had umpteen fun
the concert was the best part
wish could rewind n stop to the part
where we all are excited
laughing, getting silly, having fun
time flies fast den expected
now i just have to wait
for sunday :)

I love those two!

p.s: i'm jealous of couples!

2010-02-10T20:02:00.000-08:00

' wateva happens 2dae let it be a secret '

I dont call it scary, i call it weird
such a weird dae
something happen, in no doubt i dont even wanna recall bout it
not even hear a single word on it
a little trauma here n there
but u just have to overcome it
anybody who noes just shuddup
if u do a hundred thanks
gettin serious just for now
' Ya allah, yg maha penyanyang ampun kan lah dosa dosa hambu mu ini, jauhkan lah hamba mu ini daripada syaitan. AMIN HIRABBIL ALAMIN '
tanx to everyone who tried to care
n esp to Raudhah special thanks to u for being strong
sitting beside me mcm expert saja...
one day i treat u ok maybe to universal studio (insyallah)
well u will nvr noe
i've learn something 2dae
' even if u say u are brave there is just something u are scared with '

Anyway forget bout dat
i had an advance preview of the chinese new year concert (hehe)
ok lah but the perfomance is quite short
i wanted it to be a surprise
but it just blew it at my face
n 2nite american idol appearance ellen (yippee)
k nites

2010-02-06T09:01:00.000-08:00

Yeah i manage to get it all upload
recap on yest community day is found at Raudhah's blog
but one thing there is
is go away bi--tch
' if u are trying to start having attitude problems with all of us
den u are in so doubt
if u want some attention find yourself some stage center coz yours is lacking
if u wanna try n act you are the big boss infront of me or Hajar n Azirah
den let me tell ya one thing u are gonna be in trouble '

I feel like slapping her face
seriously no respect
'berbual tk leh baik ke per girl
attention je nk lebih'
i'm glad Hajar gave her the attitude dat she needs
nvr mind im gonna give her another day
see wats up with her attitude
u are sooooo in my black list
luckily not top
or else im nvr gonna let u breathe

2010-02-03T20:52:00.000-08:00

For the first time
i had lots of fun with Raudhah
nvr did before
it had being years girl
but nvr did i feel dis kind of energetic behavior
when im with u
n now it really happens
so on Mon. after skool
Raudhah went to my pad
webcam-ing, quiz-ing, sleep-ing. hahakz!
ok i admit i did sleep n raudhah did not but its bcoz
she went watching the stupid movie ' year one '
i had known dat at dat point of time i will fell asleep
n i really did
Raudhah says i look cute ^-^ ( hahakz )
Raudhah's unexpected ans on most of the quiz
had me saying she will enjoy ____ to the fullest
while mine is confusing
i cant guess why it would be confuse much
hmm...n yest. skool was normal
study study study
until Muadz sing one time n love me
he spoil the song of it
argh...wrg lyrics, wrg tune, bad sung
wat could possibly go nice?!
n i had to run, wait, run n perspire
just to meet up with mdm Rehana
but lastly just went home
great rite... bah...
plus yippee now i noe dat his single
so wat more to think?!
~~valentines~~ date?
stick to one or just go for the other one
i'm so random

we call it webcam not camera!

I love Raudhah! don't liplock too much

haha. my face crap

serious down 70%
anyway to Raudhah if u want more of the pics msg me

p.s: i miss writing p.s!

2010-01-30T19:07:00.000-08:00

Hahs im such a liar
saying i will be posting since dat day
but nutink came out
even now im doing it for the sake of frends
hmm...now i've just gotten back home
from karaoke-ing n window shopp-ing
had alot of fun esp. karaoke
but den time limit was interrupted by the supervisor
den went cosway n back home
but before dat headed to popular
n saw a bunch of things for valentines day
freaking irrits n jealous by it somehow
n since im semi-single rite now
guess my date will have to be
Amalina bah...
since we both are semi-single
n aint so desperate for the back to back bf. haha.
we might just have to pair up
but 110% we arent a lesbian
while dat counting the days
to meet _______________________
k i just want a white guy for now plss....

2010-01-26T18:17:00.000-08:00

To be continued..... a proper post 2morow

2010-01-17T17:59:00.000-08:00

' Kecoh sesangat '
Azirah's sister had her engagement yest.
yup! one thing is i had fun being busy

hahakz

the gift to her

the gift to him

oh n boy i'm so ready to move on without u beside
i did the decisions so why do i need to change my mind
verrry r.i.d.i.c.u.l.o.u.s!
k watching people's choice award

2010-01-14T04:41:00.000-08:00

Scary rite below!

2010-01-14T03:52:00.000-08:00

*http://vigilantcitizen.com/*

I need to spread dis out
before it all comes wrg
its about superstars making it big but sucking like shit
lady gaga, beyonce, rihanna, fu_king jay-z, kanye west
n maybe taylor swift ( but i hope she is not involve )
its all bout the OCCULTS
the bad romance, russian roulette, run this town n sweet dream
there is a bad hidden meaning to those songs
they are all mind controlling songs
n guess wat they arent christians
they actually believe in those egyptians thingy
which have the eye in the middle of a triangle
if im not wrg its called eye of providence
n they pray n believe to their baphomet god dat is kind of a goat
weird n shock rite?!
but dats not the end, in their music videos
its all a part of their ritual having the goat and some other bad stuffs
don't believe let me show it to u

Lady Gaga’s Bad Romance – The Occult Meaning
Nov 15th, 2009 | By Vigilant | Category: Vigilant Reports

Lady Gaga’s videos and performances are extremely symbolic and filled with hidden messages. Her latest video, named “Bad Romance”, describes the dark and ritualistic inner-workings of the entertainment industry, by symbolically depicting Gaga as a sex slave. This article examines the occult symbols present in the video and its hidden meaning.

The video for the song Bad Romance is a mix of deep symbolism with sheer randomness, creative fashion with corporate product placements and modern day decadence with religious imagery, all rolled up in a great big music industry celebration. Gaga uses her odd-ball theatrical presence to its full extent to shock, creep-out and fascinate the viewers. If you’ve read my other articles on Lady Gaga (see Lady Gaga, The Illuminati Puppet pt 1 and pt 2), you’ll already be aware of the occult symbols permeating her imagery. I’ve mentioned the presence of mind control elements, of the horned god Baphomet, of secret societies and so on. Far from steering away from those themes, Gaga’s latest offering incorporates all of them in this video, which is a great big metaphor for the music industry. Let’s look at the song.

Concept of the Song

Bad Romance is the first single out of Gaga’s Fame Monster album. If you look back at her past works, the main message of her music is that she is willing to do anything, even sacrifice herself, to obtain fame. The video continues in the same vein by depicting Gaga as a willing victim in the music industry’s shady inner-workings. She wants to live a Bad Romance with the abusive, cruel and satanic music industry. She’s aware of all of its flaws but she still desires to be part of it more than anything else. She is a Fame Monster…she feeds off of fame…she enjoys being famous…if she is not famous, she’ll die or something…you get the picture. At face value, the song lyrics seem to be about her wanting to get “banged” by a kind of psychopath, but the video reveals that the psychopath is in fact the music industry.

The song starts with a weird chant that goes

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

This is the type of senseless crap drunk people like to yell in those disco dance parties you crazy kids go to. Is there a deeper meaning to it? Gaga announces it in a weird, gothic accent, in the manner of a ceremonial/incantation, a little like the “Bum-bum-bedum” of Rihanna’s Disturbia (article here). Ra, as the name of the ancient Egyptian sun god, is still of great importance in today’s occultism (see the “Eye of Ra”, the All-Seeing Eye). Roma may be a reference to the roman catholic church, but I’m not sure. This could be interpreted in many ways so I won’t linger on it.

I want your ugly
I want your disease
I want your everything
As long as it’s free
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

I want your drama
The touch of your hand
I want your leather-studded kiss in the sand
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

Right away, it is obvious that the love that Gaga is seeking is wrong and sick. She’s a sex slave and apparently, she likes it. She knows that the industry is ugly but she still wants in. There is an obvious sense of sadomasochism, as she seems to know that this love (of success in the music industry) will hurt her and treat her badly, but she’s up for it. As we will examine in the video, there is also a spiritual meaning to the lyrics where fame equals submitting to the dark, satanic side of the music industry. In other words, the song is also about submitting to evil and the imagery of the video corroborates this fact.

I want your horror
I want your design
‘Cause you’re a criminal
As long as your mine
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love-uuhh)

I want your psycho
Your vertigo stick
Want you in my rear window
Baby you’re sick
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

Here again, there is a mix of the “horror” of evil with hardcore sex references, which convey the fact that she wants to be “penetrated” by this evil influence in order to gain its favors. There are references to Hitchcock movies (Psycho, Vertigo) that are cleverly turned into sexually explicit lyrics.

During the bridge, Gaga sings emotionally “I don’t wanna be friends“. She does not want to be an outsider of the music industry, she wants to be part of it. Later she says “I want your love and, All your lovers’ revenge”, which means that she wants all of the attention of the music industry to the point that she also wants the “hate” of the artists who are jealous of her.

Of course, the lyrics are open to interpretation but the visuals of the video really give a particular meaning to the words. Gaga is not singing to a person, but to a group, an entity, an organization. She is singing to the Illuminati, to the music industry, to Baphomet: to the ones that have the power to make her famous. She wants to be part of that sinister and corrupt system and write a Bad Romance with it.

Analysis of the Video

The video is dense with symbols and odd images. Some are significant while others seem to be random. It is obvious that the whole concept is a huge allegory for the reality of fame. She plays the role of a mind-controlled and drugged sex slave who is prepared to get auctioned to members of the Russian mafia. Here’s the video.

MAIN STORY LINE

The video starts with Gaga emerging from what looks like a high-tech coffin or maybe a sensory deprivation tank.

At the beginning of the video, she is deprived of her senses. Either her eyes, her ears or her nose are covered. Sensory deprivation is a torture technique used on prisoners or mind controlled slaves in order to “break” them and to facilitate their re-education. She is a beginner, an amateur and she doesn’t really know what she’s doing.

Gaga can’t see or hear anything

In one scene, she is wearing thick sunglasses and talking to herself through a mirror.

This is reminiscent of The Who’s Tommy movie, where a deaf, dumb and blind boy only becomes responsive when staring at the mirror.

The Who’s Tommy is a movie about a boy who becomes deaf, dumb and blind after a traumatic event.

Gaga then bathes herself to “wash off her sins” as Gaga said in an interview about the video. She is “wide-eyed” and innocent but we’ll see that she’ll gradually turn into a “Fame Monster”.

Innocent Gaga taking an innocent bath with her big innocent eyes

She is then roughly handled by two women. She fights them but she finally accepts her fate and even raises her hands in praise.

Throughout the video, there is a back and forth between her being forced to go through with her duties as a slave and her willingness to go through with them. She is then forced to drink some vodka, which is in fact an MTV-friendly substitute for drugs. Mind controlled sex slaves are heavily drugged to numb their thoughts and make them easy to manipulate.

Gaga is then undressed and forced to perform in front of a bunch of men. Those mafioso can represent the Illuminati, the dark force ruling the music industry. The masks represent their hidden nature. Each individual represents a record company, and they are bidding to see who will sign her.

Gaga seems to be well aware of what is happening and she chooses to charm a particular guy, who seems to have what she wants. The masked man seems to enjoy what is happening to him and bids to obtain her.

One second left to the auction for the services of Lady Gaga

Gaga is then required to fulfill her duties as a sex slave by…you’ve guessed it… having sex with the winning bidder. So she proceeds into a very symbolic room.

Her hands are strategically placed under the horned heads. Immediately after, a fire ignites the room.

On each side of the bed are gazelle heads, who symbolically refer to Baphomet, the horned idol of Western occultism.

If you’ve read my other articles on the music industry, you already know of the frequent use of the likeness of Baphomet in music videos and pictures. My past articles on Gaga have shown her posing in the same way as the image above. Strategically placed horned heads have appeared in her past videos and photo shoots. Having said that, the presence of those horned heads in that room is not merely decorative, it is very symbolic.

Gaga is “offering herself” at the altar of Baphomet in order to become initiated and accepted into the Order. She does not want “to be friends” with the music industry, she wants to be an insider (she’s not a “Fame Monster” for nothing). So this offering gets consumed by fire, and not sex, because it is about Baphomet and not the Russian guy. He was just a means for her to obtain what she wanted..fame.

When the fire starts, another scene plays simultaneously showing Gaga and masked dancers dressed in red, the color of sacrifice and initiation. The virginal white garments she wore during most of the video are replaced by bloody red, a visual confirmation of the fact that she is now initiated and accepted as an insider. In my article on the 2009 VMA awards (article here), we see that Lady Gaga and Taylor Swift start out the show wearing white garments and, after a symbolic performance, they appear completely dressed in red. The codes of the music industry seem to be used over and over again, in videos, award shows and photo shoots.

Gaga then makes her trademark “Eye in the triangle” hand gesture after her initiation to make it clear who owns her now…the Illuminati.

The final scene shows Gaga lying in bed with the burned skeleton of the Russian mafiosi.

Notice how everything is burnt except the two gazelle heads. The real “intercourse” happened between Gaga and Baphomet. The guy was a tool, a middle-man who was sacrificed in the process of Gaga’s initiation.

So Gaga basically went through the steps a mega-pop star has to go through in order to “make it big” in the music industry. She ultimately got what she wanted and apparently played the game on her own terms. Let’s see how that works out for her.

Other Symbols

Aside from the main storyline, the video is riddled with numerous symbols and images which are occult in nature. Here are some of them:

SUN SYMBOLISM

There are many symbols referring to the sun in the video. As said above, Ra is an Egyptian sun god who is mentioned many times in the magic incantation-like “Rah-rah” chant. Sun worship has always been at the center of occult mysteries as it is considered to be the ultimate representation of God.

Image of the sun in the razorblade shades. She is wearing a golden dress. Gold is representative of the sun in occultism.

Golden sunlight bringing her back to life

Gaga at the center of planetary orbits

Anti-Christian Symbolism

Christianity has always been at odds with occult secret societies. Persecutions and accusations come from both sides and one often defines itself by the negating the other. This is also represented in the video.

The word “Monster” with a Christian cross underneath it creates a not-so-subliminal unconscious association

The cross associated with the word “Monster” is also seen on her promotional pictures:

Notice the position of her hands

A cross placed right on her “privates”. No matter what religion you are, you know this is not a sign of respect

In this choreography, Gaga does what looks like the sign of the cross but her hand gesture describes a triangle instead (classic phallic symbol). Enjoy my brilliantly drawn triangle to help you visualize it.

REPTILIAN MONSTER SYMBOLISM

In some scenes, Gaga gradually starts to look like reptilian monster, with a focus on the spine.

Emphasis on the spine

Why is her spine glowing?

Angry looking bat on her head

Bulging spine… I’m not sure of what she is doing with her fingers either.

There is a great resemblance with the devil in this painting by Michael Pacher. Notice the spine.

In Conclusion

Lady Gaga’s Bad Romance is by far the densest and most symbolic video I’ve ever analyzed. It is a metaphorical yet accurate description of the steps which must be taken in order to become part of the “mega-pop-star machine”. Submission, control, business negotiations, initiation, secrecy and the embrace of dark forces are all represented in the video. Once decoded, the song describes indeed the Bad Romance of the music industry. The machine uses artists, it pimps them, it cheats on them with new, hotter artists and it finally dumps them when the initial appeal is lost.

Gaga, the “Fame Monster” wants to be treated that way, knowing that there is not any other way to obtain world-wide fame. One might be extremely creative and talented, however fame can only be achieved through the exposure provided by the media corporations. They are owned by a secretive elite, represented by the masks on the faces of the bidders in the video. Bad Romance, more than simply serving the required dose of subversive symbolism to the MTV generation, offers a chilling description of a music industry ruled by the elite. And now comes the hardest part: getting this damn song out of my head.

Interesting hah? There is more u should look up to on
sweet dreams, umbrella, run this town, russian roulette n esp. Mtv Vma awards
there is bout the kanye west incident that is staged... yup its staged
if u are lazy to read at least look at the pics den u will noe why
the website is http://vigilantcitizen.com/
wat an intelligent people/ are they making big superstars
to sing regarding their religion
n wat a cheater are those big wide world superstars
using black magic or the satanic for themselves
to make them be popular (hummmph)
so let me just remind u do not get too influential in those songs
u can sing but dont listen to it

Psychology thing

- sis said people who compose the songs themselves are good girls n boys
meaning justin bieber plus ashley tisdale still surviving ( yes ah )

2010-01-10T15:37:00.000-08:00

' Yeah Hilman treated me to mcflurry '
i did not know dat he would be dat kind
actually it all started when i suggest to Hajar
dat he should be treating us to ice cream since we had voted him
to be a chairman n yes he really did
with no hesitation ( baik kan )
except dat Amalina have no faith in him
dat his gonna do it but he really did :)( hahakz )
k ummm i dont think i will be blogging much
unless something pops out from my life
or some random guy appears ( not )
or maybe i just have to say something from my side of view
coz i wanna concentrate more on studies
for preparing n-level
since dat is wat all "adults" say
but movies pls do ask me out to dat i really need it

2010-01-06T21:17:00.000-08:00

Werld, people who wanna noe, peeps who read my blog, n those who did not even tag
I'm SINGLE!!!
no more a guy in my life. i'm just me. no other half of me completed my heart.
happy Amalina?! didnt your wishes come true. ain't u tell me i'm depressed when i'm with him. no u are a whole wrg. i just did not tell u the the whole story. n Hajar when u say i'm happy all bout it. its fake! it's not my usual self. why would i ever be happy over a thing called breaking up. Bullshit. n i dont think its a rite time for finding guys maybe u do need it. I just wanna concentrate on studies first. Dats my goal for the rest of my schooling years.

N i think i need to say dis. I just have to let it out!

To him :

[Hey wow did yest really happen between us? Maybe breaking up it's rite for both of us. continuous love i don't think so. n i did not dump u, it is just wise decision.
i've being thinking it over n over again. n i think its the rite time for us to break it off. no point staying together while being unhappy with one another or even making excuses n reasons not to meet up. even our 5th monthsary u forget bout it. n yes i did not see u for the last 2 months. where did the 2 months go?! Busy busy, old skool style. i dont take dat as an ans. stop msging n calling me. very useless, i wont reply to dat. giving u second chance (haha) no i'm not dat type of girl. i wont be like your other ex. use den throw. frankly u were nvr my true love nor i feel a great love in me towards u. u were just for me who i need company. who i need someone to share dis feeling towards to. I don't find true love easily but when i do i fall deeply. n i can't be your frend its too much to handle the memories. k i will just stop here.]

Now i learn ' trust your guy n have commitment towards it. '
too much love story going on hah k i think no more love story.

2010-01-02T09:40:00.000-08:00

[Lets get it started rite now, rite here]

He-lo 2010!
I had just finish reading all of my post
n baby i've make lots of memories
in dis blog. 18 months n still counting!
all the bad n good ones are thrown in here
n i've being thinking bout vlogging rather den blogging
well for readers who can't think enough
vlogging is actually a type where u blog but with a video rec.
its like u are not telling them
u are showing them wat happens in your real world
for example. go to youtube n search for shaytards
dat will show u wat vlog actually is
i was really inspired by dis guy who call himself shaycarl
who shows wat really happens in his own world
but i've realised i can't do vlog coz i don't have a video rec. boring!
n my tagboards dead. Great!

K ah everyone watch dis video below
its superbly funny n awesome to the max
show it to the rest of the world
dis video is about 2009 pop songs dat has being mashup
n look wat u get after all is combine. very cool!
tag me after dat on wat u tink!

Unimaginable cool rite?!

2009-12-31T01:49:00.000-08:00

2009-12-30T09:44:00.000-08:00

Im seriously irrits with the singapore idol
on who should be winning n who should be just crying over losing
well my morning starts with the arguments of my parents
over singapore idol. can u believe it!
its already gone, gone n going
no point bringing up wat has just decided
it's so lame over arguing bout the singapore idol situation
unless it's bout tiger woods. its so much worth and better!
make it a fair competition

Anyway yest i'm out of Singapore. like at last!
but was to Johor with family n kak nas
we went to city square cinema firstly
n the time was 11 a.m yet it was so freaking pack
bought tickets n watch non-other den the alvin n chipmunks 2. haha kental...
den went shopping at kota raya
mom found wat she want so we went food hunting
but all we eat was pizza. prawn oglio my fave!
n oh boy, i hope i dont gain weight (plsss insyallah amin)
n hey, no kidding one of the pizza hut typical handsome guy
kept looking at me (scary)
den went shopping again back to city sqaure
dad thought of watching Santau but mum did not want
she says it will be a loss of money
shop for shoes
n one of the store dat we went too, we were there 45 mins (boring)
den we went to silver planet for kak nas shoes
n hahakz there was a cute salesboy/guy
holding a shoe box with small slippers
going up to us n standing in front of me
while saying to my mum wat size do we want
n we were like wat whose shoe is dat for
all awhile he had a wrong customer. ke sengaja boy!
den about 6 p.m back to home sweet home

Great 2 more day to 2010
n 5 more days to back to skool. berry fast!
i can't even feel my holidays yet the time
come on time can stop. NOT!
so everyone has a goal for 2010
n I do have one too
goals:
10. make a good choice bout keeping him or letting him go
9. lil miss outing. i've decided where to go, i just need the rite time!
8. i wanna meet my malaysia cousins n be back at segambut (i miss them)
7. overseas holiday (pls mum)
6. a game board. i want pictionary to improve on my art! hahs
5. more better movies n songs (esp. transformers)
4. watch more movies (anything)
3. buck up, get better on my studies. i wanna make my mum proud!
2. universal studio n yes i do i do n i want
no.1 is always a secret hahs.

N dis week i'm fully pack, i wont be free
so i wont be blogging much
' when will my homework finish'

2009-12-26T10:55:00.000-08:00

Happy holidays oiii!

For xmas i was with family
was from Cik ros house, Nenek house, Cosway point n back to home
den the day before
had movies with Fatimah
n we watch Alvin n the chipmunks 2
luckily we were early enough to get the tickets
but the-no-student-price-tickets( humph )
n the seats was not bad
three rows to the cinema just like 2012. i like!
it was crowded very crowded
n it was suppose to start at 12.20 but it was delayed
maybe for some tech prob ( i don noe )
so the show was awesome
my choice of movies no. 3 for the year
transformers is no. 1 n no. 2 is 2012
i give alvin n the chipmunks 4.9/5
i like the ending where they sing ' we are family '
very harmonious
too bad Amalina did not watch it ( hahs in your face )
we meet Azirah
n seriously she cut n rebond her hair ( wow )
she looks so different - verrry
n den meet Alvin n Weixin with frends
in RP did some homework plus stuffs
den walk to home!

2009-12-19T18:53:00.000-08:00

'the elephant just shit n pee a mess
even it's lying down, making a show
or just wanting us to see where it all comes out from
n i did get splash from the elephant'
hahakz i like ;D ;D ;D

Spend the day on sunday to zoo with Amalina, sis n mum
it all turns out to be 'ok lets just enjoy day'
- met Amalina
- timed 11.30 a.m
- bought her stuffs
- den meet mum n sis
- train/ed to chua chu kang
- board bus 927
- chat n pics
- Justin bieber typical handsome (hahakz random)
- zoo --- raining plus long quene
- luckily had free tickets before hand
- poncho's at $3 actual $4.90
- mum had her own umbrella
- freaking irrit with the poncho
- but first time in zoo raining = so cool
- pics
- white tiger
- pics
- kangaroo
- pics
- raining heavily
- under shelter/ed
- map like a piece of crap
- separate, on our own way --- mum n sis: tram / me n Amalina: discovering
- baboons (Amalina's boyfriend haha)
- garden pavillion
- pics
- monkeys
- amphitheatre
- primate kingdom
- bought nachos
- back again to amphitheatre
- pics
- ele-fun show at 3.30 p.m reached at 2.20 p.m
- pics
- delayed 10 mins
- show start show ends
- kfc
- eat while having boysss talk
- met mum n sis back
- Amalina broke her necklace plus lost her wrist band
- kesian dia ' ada hikmahnya'
- bus 138 to ang mo kio
- mrt/ed back home
- chatt/ed
- saw Naia (looking preety as last time)
- home --- smell just like animal
- bathed
- movies
yah so dats all! Zoo has almost become my second home. No my everyday holiday! n all the animal there has just seem to be my frend except the pig (eewww)
fyi: shots below ( for animals post before has it all )

Btw Amalina says i'm getting chubbi-er ( i'm not ) actually she's the one whose getting chubbi-er-er-er ( humph )
i miss lil miss alot ( i want a go get away with them rite now )it has almost been a month not going out like a group
but nvr mind, one day movies ok! ( do not even bother to ask dear )

Zoo part 1:

Zoo part 2:

Decided no videos for zoo will be put! coz first it's f*cking long to upload it, second just waiting for dis video to upload is no sense at all,mthirdly it may not appear, fourth it's nothing interesting nor anything special happening, fifth waste of my time, sixth n last youtube itself has the video so search it yourself yah! Finish.

2009-12-18T17:54:00.000-08:00

I had my hair done like a grEEK-ed,
seeing kak nas doing it was awesome
from where she learn it u will not know!
i've tried to learn all dis hair style
but it just doesn't make it on my head (humph) -__ -

Hmmm...well yest went out with amalina
I wanted to find clothes
we went from cosway to ang mo kio
n it sucks dat not even one shop i'm interested in
i guess i should just stick to toys
rather den finding clothes without my sis
in the meantime our stomachs kept growling
since both of us did not even have breakfast
so we headed to amalina's pad
for fave macaroni

N i had the macaroni from 4 .15 pm
n n n dat was my first meal
n now i still can't believe how i manage to persevere (hahakz)
anyway dis few months i've not being eating right
i mean like i've being skipping breakfast or lunch
rite now i've not eat my lunch haha k ttn

2009-12-15T19:42:00.000-08:00

I love my hair!

It smells nice dats why! (follow-me-green-tea-shampoo)
n myself too
hmm...early on had gone to gym in rp with sis n her frends
since i'm bored to death n i have not been exercising for days
so why not try the gym
all the can be hunks n muscular guys was assembling
at one station
n the atmosphere was like 'woah check it out they are showing wat they got'
but taylor lautner still wins
tried the equipments
well the treadmill was the best of all
later had found out i was perspiring like hell
went to foodcourt den to lib for games
i had fun all the time playing pictureka
with the distraction n irritss
we headed to trcc next
n ohhh naia i saw tabitha, duane n farhan in the cafe
'tabi dh mcm kurus dokkk'
so now i'm back home sucking a lollipop

P.s: i love u but i just wish i could change the word love to forget

2009-12-11T16:19:00.001-08:00

LG GW250

I've just got line, no more prepaid
no more troublesome topping up money
new student line means new hp. + new no.
n yes below pic is my new n current hp

(mum paid 138 for dis)
random pick on dis hp
i needed my phone to be touch screen but below $150
wanted itouch badly but since it has overshot the price
so forget it
singtel is my choice rather den starhub
n no way will i take m1 (cheater)
i'm starting to miss my old hp
not even a year or 8 months i've being with it :|
n while dat i'm trying to get use with LG phone
since dis is the first time for my entire life using LG

Anways yest headed to town for shopping
from lavender > bugis > marina
yet we bought nothing
coz nobody is in the shopping mood
but thats when cosway we were all full n geared up

P.s: solve it yourself first den talk to me

2009-12-08T11:51:00.000-08:00

I feel like celebrating Xmas!

With all the presents n decorations n sales
going around, it's irritating much to just keep
on looking at the things dat are displayed
although 25 dec is farrr away
so...i'm feeling a little eager bout it
santa claus nvr exist rite?!

I've gotten a hair cut
n i think i'm 50/50 happy bout it
argh i dont wish to elaborate on it
'just for now'

2009-12-05T18:51:00.000-08:00

Mr Shah is officially MARRIED!!! i think...
(ouh...no more single life! congratulations)

Ok yah, above his married (hahs)
actually suppose to go but lots of people are dead
so den i spend the day home free
itouch, eat, bathed, play board games, watch tv!
dats all the thing dat happen 2dae
nothing special nor anything happen
(crap boring)
if known better i should have gone out shopping
with mum n sis
k nvr mind 12 dec
anyways i've bought a new game
with my own savings
it's called pictureeeka
n its ok ok fun
not suitable for people who doesn't noe
wat patience of have fun means
i've played taboo too n it's superbly fun
thought of buying dat but need 4 n more people

I wanna go out but with dear
(aku rindu lepak dgn itu jantan/s)
arghhh...busy - excuses (wateva bo layan)
ok fine for den i will be busy for him too (hahs)
i've found dis video below in youtube
n is reckless funny (hahakz)

2009-11-28T10:16:00.000-08:00

Hari Raya Haji had past just yest
it felt so fast
same as other dates
it has come to my realise
dat its already the end of the year
n next year i'm coming to sec 3 (best ke per...)
i'm getting old, not so old but old for me
uhhh...childish in the outside, maturity inside
n i get art, thinking back did i pick the rite choice
yes i pick it with my own decisions
but is my art good enough to impress the tcher
esp. when u have a tcher dat wants more from wat you are doing
my art grades for 2009 was a fail
sis promised to help me in my art since she took art
n had good grades for art
so hope she can make me a pass!

Anyways kak nas came to my pad yest
i had a lot of fun esp. the heartattack poker style
n n n monopoly
k i wanna go out of Singapore
i want an overseas holiday
Singapore is all bout shopping
i want some adventure
i want fun action pack
i want family fun-loving times
well everyone is busy with their own lifes
humph no time here there
boring lah!!! =/
k ah byeeeeee

2009-11-24T20:59:00.000-08:00

3/5 for christmas carol 3D
u can see the effects
the snow dat wows u
but if u wanna love the movie
u have to understand
n listen properly to the wat-the-heck-they-are-talking convo
a great animated show
do think twice before wanting to watch it!

Had an alone time with mum 2dae
n i practically enjoy it lots :)
since mum is always busy with work, overnight
'so is everyone in the house'
she took leave 2dae
just bcoz of me(awww)
we bought skool books in the morning
n off to amk hub at 2.30 in the afternoon
watched christmas carol 3D
bought some stuffs
den mrt'ed' to cosway point to lib
just known dat they have found my bro's lib card(yeah)
at last it's lost by me but found by some kind person
n n n yeah me i have a lib card now dat stated my name
dis means no more of borrowing books above other people's name(cool)
i like the card brand new (bling)
uh...n not to forget i love my mum :D only god noes why

I love my ~~boy~~friend too! (miss him again) :x
"dat song goes to u"

2009-11-21T18:44:00.000-08:00

Yest went out with outing buddy
n the 4 funny jerks
to bugis den suntec city
not a disaster nor the best outing with Shao qiang
deliberately it's so tiring walking with dat asshole
with the shouting, porno talking n bad words
i'm nvr gonna walk with him out to shopping again :}
mostly myself n Amalina went shopping
while the guys played SA in iouma mall
n yesss luckily i found wat i want, the pants n necklace
but wasted i should buy the shades (lawa gila)
i still had $10 in hand (argh...)
there were more stuffs in the bugis street
but i was so restless to entertain more of it
f.y.i i'm not a good choice in asking me out to shopping
unless its toys
Alvin sacrifice his day for accompanying us
although his sick n he could just tolerate our behavior
n Wei xin just loves to disturb people
so in revenge we had him disturbing on Hajar
although their is no sparks goin on
but we just love it
fun lah bobo
wedding dis sunday ok set...
We found lots of things dat is related to Shao qiang
e.g - a shop name ' fat face ' n a shirt called ' i M fat '
(hahakz) no offense :D
hahs fat guy still wanna sae we are lazy
for taking a short escalator ride! (humph)
we end the day around 7:30 p.m mrt riding
while chatting on bobo n disco stick (-_-)
next outing when???
rite now eating kinder bueno
n waiting mr Shah's marriage n n n new moon (force too)

Credits photo by me n Wei xin

Hell no!

escalator till 4th storey

the menu of day - nasi ayam penyet (fave ku)

amalina collaborate shanad

ioma mall

outing buddy

lyn sendiri

alvin, shanad, amalina, shao qiang

my wish:__________

emo boy just wanna call himself lady shao

p.s: it's hard to hate someone u love, its even harder to try
i'm such a loser. i can't change my feelings for u
is dis wat u call love?!

2009-11-20T08:56:00.000-08:00

Happy b'dae Raudhah!
I admit i miss u n the old u :[
14 year's now big n growing bigger
Happy b'dae ;]

2009-11-19T13:16:00.000-08:00

He-lo!
the day before yesterday
went to lib with lil miss
i wanted to do a pile of homework
dat the t'chers had given
but was too corrupted with Hajar
dat i kept talking to her
n i gave up
we had a random talk here n there
"hollywood won't be waiting but i'm still supporting"
n "typical handsome eh eh eh" hahs
had our lunch at horizon food mall
den went to Fathima's pad
played uno spin
thought of sleeping after dat
but went watching paranormal activity
the movie is all crap
it doesn't even make any sense
the most not even a ghost is shown
claming one of the scariest movie
scary ummm... NO
most of the time the actors were just talking
2/5 a waste of time
n n n Amalina was even scared of watching it (w.t.h) -_-!

Yesterday headed to lib again
with Amalina, Azirah n Hilman
to return books n pay fine
n yeah i get to put all my concentration n focus to one thing
dat is homework (at last oii)
there were kids everwhere n kecoh rabak (memekak)
but luckily we wanted to go some where else
packed n off to have lunch
while walking Amalina n Hilman
kept saying dat all of the kids were my friends
"sry sikit eh itu Hajar nyer kwn ah walaupun perangai aku mcm budak kecil" (hehe)
no offense twin
went to banquet
Hilman was serious to treat me to food
after a lot of time begging him with my innocent face(hahakz)
but i declined well only god n they noe why?!
n den walk around cosway
into a cd shop Amalina, Azirah
kalau tau dh shh...
n to kiddy palace
i wasn't the one who wanted to go but Amalina was
coz of her baby girl, dat's what she said
we had a lot of fun with the bears esp big ones (hug me)
out of kiddy palace
sparks or wateva love eye electricity
started to happen
n again we only noe wat happen esp me (haha)
'dumb dumb u guys in public u noe
u guys wanna act like dat but yet i like'
i was getting restless over them n bored too
looking over the love bugs walking away
don't even care bout us (humph)
guess who the love bugs are ______________ n ______________
i'm not gonna tell
the lovebugs were in like their own world
"lovebugs sombong tau, drg gi lyn diri sendiri"
at last we had our revenge
den we head to RP
n the lovebugs was walking very slow
they were like 10 miles of us
we had a little tiff outside RP lib between me n Amalina
went in the lib
n dis is the part where all fun things happen
we talk over everything from last year to dis year
the lovebugs wanted to do their homework but i kept distrupting
hahaks padan muka krg :P
den off went home
hahakz i had fun with them, semua kaki gerek :D
esp Azirah for being their with me throughout the day
i love u girl!
n Azirah if u noe hu the lovebugs are diam tau
n n n the word of the day "belanja"
the kecohness peeps of the day "me"
the irritating yet seductive of the day "kau ni kenapa from Amalina"
the silent one of the day "Azirah"
the patience guy of the day "Hilman"

N 2dae I've just learn something
' when u screw up dancing just continue follow the rhythm"

2009-11-14T10:03:00.000-08:00

Watched 2012 yesterday
1 whole family came
seatings all were full
luckily dad bought early
took the 9.45 p.m show
n finished around 12.25 a.m
lucky enough to get the last train

Overall the show 4/5
it has great visual, sound n graphic effects
they should win an award on dat
scary yet funny
wow very shiok the story
but 1 thing crap bout it is
dat the ending LAME!
they say dat it's the end of the world
but there are still survivors (w.t.h)
n they are heading to africa for land
k mepek.
it's just the same as the day after 2morow
better say not ending of the world kan?!
recommended to watch, must watch, should watch
but u should do booking first or else all the good seats taken
n stuck in the first 4 rows
the best movie but still transformers no.1

2009-11-11T10:32:00.000-08:00

Yeah! i'm in class 3-6

but 47 students in each class fuuh
record conferm kecoh, cannot study
why couldn't they just break up to 3 classes
rather den all in 2 classes
argh nvrmind
i'm happy now
dat i'm in the same class with my twin (goyang)

Dad asked me out to watch 2012
with mum 2morow
apparently i did not want
bcoz i'm the believer but not on the date
but i tried to be brave
n anyway dis is sometimes in a lifetime
u get free tickets n popcorn dat go with family bonding :)

N i need a go getaway with my frends
i want to go out to town
rather den staying in the crap boring same old cosway
i need shopping
i need the beach
i just need to escape from my house
i'm too busy with my life n family
dat i forget all bout them
n went it came to them
i will just say 3 words
helo, busy, bye
now ask me out since i'm free

Amalina told me dis yesterday
she doesn't like boys who smoke
n she will nvr/not love
yet marry them
she thinks dat they are the bad ones
n just bcoz they reek of smell, n their teeth's is yellow
which is true but still she shouldn't be looking down on them
to Amalina "so wat if guys smoke? doesn't mean they are the dumbster
doesn't mean their life ends just like dat...
n the most nvr judge them by their outside
they could be the good guys
even people who doesn't smoke may not be the good one
they can be the bad one
even your special guy maybe it's not a good guy
like wat u say, u don't noe
n u can nvr noe"
i'm not supporting them
n i'm not smoking
but it's just common sense
i hate people who look down on others easily
n not giving them a second chance in life
they need to change

I've just learn the art of love. NOT!
dang...4th monthsary sux badly
arghhh why things are so complicated over us
it did not go as planned
{chatting, meeting}
all dat went wasted
n i said it all out without thinking
i'm sry but i guess i just need a "break"
too clingy too much
i need space for once
i need time to think over again
i still have your text n i can almost rememba all the sweet things u said
but i'm deleting n erasing it
guess i don noe how to keep it
n i'm taking one step at a time
don't forget me
it's just a "break"

2009-11-08T10:24:00.000-08:00

Youtube frenzy!
i found all on jimmy kimmel
n his show is intelligently funny
watch it!

If u watch paris hilton is my new bff
den Jimmy kimmel tries to have the same reality show just like paris hilton
called {Jimmy Kimmel's my new bff}
on how he picks, how he acts
its like almost the same
'hahakz stop it sia'
very funny must watch
there are four parts inc. conclusion

Shaq plays with Jimmy Kimmel on scrabble
n they came up with funny words
i like how Shaq puts up all the word with quote
and continues it
' Vagonado ' u will noe it
n their eng fail
must see the last part funny (kekek)

Wanna learn dance?!
ummmm not me if his teaching for sure

Halloweeeeeen
the kid is damn cute n they used him
humph but sporting (i loike)

2009-11-07T09:14:00.000-08:00

Yeah! pics dh upload
no need to have a fuss with blogger anymore
'patience pay the price'
more on sentosa
yes, there are the best and the spoilers
the best:
- monorail
- a pic with alvin n wei xin
- played cards with my 2 t'chers
- riding a bicycle without experience
- soccer n monkey
- timezone
- chill out
- riding home
- i had fun with every single of them except Jun zhi

n the spoilers they n it sucks badly
argh i don even wanna talk n think bout it
i live, laugh n love :)
but if u still wanna noe, ask me personally
n to those who make my day all the way from fun to best of fun
u're great!

Let the pics do all the talking
(click for a better look)

Commendation day

crap

lil miss gang

in van

candid

They're luv

2009-11-04T12:40:00.000-08:00

Blogger is being an ass in not uploading pics
blogger sucks big time (arghhh)
it will take sometime for u to see it
well all u can do is wait for it

2009-11-03T19:49:00.000-08:00

2morrow post will be on sentosa :) n wat happen 2dae
everthing bout it will be elaborate on 2morrow
inc. pics!

2009-10-29T18:30:00.000-07:00

He-lo!
backkked
skool was fun
the closing ceremony went well
n now i have a gold medal (yippee)
with certificates for .....
eng, mr Shah had a short sweet speech at the end
true heartening enough for me
he said "it was enjoying n wonderful to work n teach u guys{2-6}"
awww hearing dat i almost cried
he won't be coming back for skool
n yes its his last year with us
he will be transferring to the west side
which now i begin to realise dat he is a really great teacher after all
n not a jerk
' treasure wat u have before it's all gone '
damn i hate to say dis but i'm gonna miss him
last meeting with him on commendation n sentosa
ok forget bout it ecs-t-asy anyone? (winks)

2morrow hope everyone comes
" but yet i've nvr wish ________ to come "
class photo taken as 2-6 angels for the last time
cow video happening tomorrow too
do come eh

Recap bout 2 hours ago
so Hajar went to my crib
n played monopoly
we talked bout something
only inoehajarnoesittoo
n i'm trouble with it
'should i or not'
but i'm gonna do one thing dat is stick with him as long as possible
i guess no one could help it except myself
n sugar daddy - dier nvr for sure
den suddenly Hajar jumps too Wei Xin topic
' klakar rabak ah Hajar, geli sia aku '
i went crazy bout it
but i like it too
she's the one who is always there for me n nvr look down on me
only she noes my secret n relationships with ----
u help me insyallah i help u back tk janji eh
n Haffizul hmmm...
' wanna noe, only a little electric shock past my back nothing special
stop thinking dat i'm falling my toes off him ' Weird!

Just called shao qiang meet my best gayfriend
although his not gay(hahakz)
prank him n he was screaming like a girl
is he? talked bout seoul garden planning
den he was telling all dis stupid joke with badwords
from idonnoewhereitcomesout
i admit it is funny
he always makes my day
' correct right fat asshole hahs '
don't get it wrg its only an inside joke between two of us
but i still do respect him
suddenly Wei Xin pop out of no where
n begin telling them the story
now MyselfHajarWeixinShaoqiangnoesit
it is stupid rite?!
came out Terrence n Jun zhi
they were playing dis S.A (dots)
n here i am now alone blogging!

Love me by Justin Bieber
it doesn't really suits his voice rite
dis really sounded like a girl
NO KIDDING HEAR PROPERLY
kind of a techno, britney spears n heidi montag - no more being mix up
' yucks '
n he is very desperate for someone to love him
no wonder no girlfriend

Rather den hearing dat above hear dis video
chris brown is back
hot sia him in the video (i loike)
the dance too preety organizing, great moves (gelek)

I'm not gonna miss a single thing incl. "U"

2009-10-27T15:01:00.000-07:00

No way....
just 3 more days to skool closes
i'm gonna miss everyone
seriously i mean everyone
2 months of break
i ain't sure wat to do
but one thing i noe i need to get out of my house
ahhh...sec 3 next year (wow)
another year is gonna past very soon
i have to spend alot of happy times with them
hoping the teachers say 2-6 will be split is wrong
please make it a false alarm
now it seems that i'm getting use to those monkeys
n won't be needing other schoolmates to replace my classmates
n dis friday is the last day
let's just take a class pic for the last one
n yes sentosa i'm waiting for it

Oh god...i need to noe their name,
i need to talk to them,
mostly i need to noe them better then just strangers
i don want to miss a chance
before skool closes
but it's scary n weird
to be the first to approach
but somehow i need to
ok u may say i'm a little desperate for it
but this feeling of mine keeps controling my emotions
i don noe wat dis feeling is called
i don wanna say goodbye
n yes i'm already nervous n scared dat i may lose dis opportunity
maybe i should ignore but it's hard
oh god wat should i do?!
i'm just gonna hope dat miracles will happen on the 3 days(please)
n Hajar i'm not cheating on him (oh never for sure)
god please give me an ans n help me on all of dis

2009-10-26T13:40:00.000-07:00

My fave funny video of the year!

While dis video below have to open the volume loud
(u will know why when u watch it)

'Pekak sia telinga'

2009-10-24T08:05:00.000-07:00

hees

dad gave this

sis gave this

fun syiok
now monopoly credit cards no more notes

Presents from frends:

2009-10-20T21:28:00.000-07:00

He-lo(wee)!
yeah i've become 14 years old(yeehaa)
n my b'dae has just past 2 days ago
wat will next year surprise be waiting for me(hmmm...)
i just love 17, esp 18 n 19 oct
many things happen at those days
{long story so hang on}
mumy asked me out shopping on 17 oct
bro was a busybody wanted to follow
while sis went to underwater world
with the dolphins(i'm jealous =})
so we went to metro firstly to look for toys/board games(my fav. i noe childish)
n things to play for kite flying
but did not find anything
so walked to kiddy palace still did not find anything
it was all stuck in toys r us
'kental ah cosway no toys r us'
den saw frisbee in kiddy palace bought it
suddenly mumy asked me to picked a bear
n so i took surprise care bear(chak) of all the others
when paying secretly saw bro paid the monopoly electrical edition
out of no where
ok den went to chameleon
mumy paid the rings dat i wanted(hees)
went to bata, mumy and bro bought shoes
me not the time yet to buy
den shop n save for titbits for kite flying
mumy took me to prima deli to buy cake
thought of buying mango cake
but bro wanted chocolate cake(siapa nyer b'dae skrg?)
so went home n dis is when the happening all started
reached home mumy started giving
me the surprise care bear, rings, n kit-kat(yeah)
bro den handed me the monopoly electrical edition(wah best best)
in there no more monopoly notes but they used monopoly credit cards
n n n it is not cheap ok, it cost $79.90(fuhhhhh)
i luv him very much, he is the best bro i've ever had
'itu ah ader abg kan confirm gerek'
so played monopoly at nite with bro
he did not give anyone chance
n he keep saying he will make me bankrupt(tk takut :P)
unfortunately i went bankrupt bcoz his a good minded player
nvr mind give chance went he come home from NS we will see whose gonna go bankrupt

The next morning played with sis n she was miraculously dumb n funny
she make me laugh the whole time
n she was trying to understand the game
there was one where she took the chance card
it says : u have to pay 250 thousand for using mobile while driving
n sis said since when did she even drive (hahakz cute)
guess who went bankrupt - sis
n my credit card left 50 million(wahhhh hees)
den mumy kept asking me to cut the cake
so a b'dae song, wished n cut
later dat day 1.30 p.m met Hajar for flying of kite(best)
n i sacrificed my day with my loved ones just to go out with her :S
she gaved me a present
we went to 7-eleven to my house to woodlands mart to market back to 7-eleven
just to buy a kite(tired sia)
den headed to padang to fly the kite
it was freaking hot but lucky us there were wind
somemore i wore a black shirt which absorbs heat
n my back was burning ;/ (~~great~~)
played frisbee, soccer n monkey with Hajar's cousin
they are so cute esp Irfan but rough
den transfer to the other padang a little far
there were no wind at all but a guy could bring his kite very high(cool)
waited for Amalina n she bought my fave macaroni with cake dat she had done
personally for me(hees tanx)
den played n played n went home sweating

Dad surprised me with a present
it was a teddy bear n it was expensive n big enough for me to hug(tk nk kalah eh)
he gaved me a card too
n the words was very sweet, very touching
it almost make me cry n i've realise dat i do not want to be the rebellious girl anymore n there are more things dat i just wish to keep it to myself
at nite sis gave me a name thing(i love)

2dae more presents came (hees)
oh n i don't care about the price or how loser the present is
i appreciate every single thing they give even words!
not like someone who donnoe how to accept things
which he or she just want more n more esp need to be expensive stuffs
'jgn terasa eh tapi kalau terasa pls change the attitude'

Tanx alot for the wishes:
mumy, dad, bro, sis, Hajar, Eiiqah, Raudhah, Amalina, Fathima, Azirah n more
u noe who u are
n esp to dear i like your words very sweet mushy talk u have there eh
"pandai eh kau cairkan girls"
u almost make me sad n angry for not wishing my b'dae
i just hate dat i'm gonna luv u :D
u say dat u will nvr even once forget 18 oct n we must always remember 19 oct
i agree much n so i'm never gonna forget 17 sep :D

Presents given out almost all were related to bear but still i love it totally
story of 19 oct will be continued at the next post
pics on b'dae will be uploaded soon

2009-10-18T07:50:00.000-07:00

HAPPY B'DAE TO ME - NUR SHARIFAH NADHIRAH
14 years old n still growing here n there(hees)
plus libraians rock :D

2009-10-10T18:06:00.000-07:00

I fell in love with the song 'One less lonely girl'
by justin bieber but not the singer
go find the video at youtube or at least hear the music
gurantee plus chop very nice to hear better then one time(totally)

2009-10-10T09:53:00.000-07:00

Bahhh... a morning to start
k, raya pics have being uploaded as promise
gonna elaborate more on the best part on the raya itself
'yg tk best langsung tk igt'
firstly, the food in atikah's house-macaroni
a delicious meal dat make my blood shake shake
luckily before those houses did not eat much
apalagi kita semua pun ngumngum
mouthwatering
secondly, Amalina kena kacau dlm bus dgn budak green eh?!
n she told me dat she saw him again twice
with budak white yg Hajar kata hot(totally not)n chatted with him
but yet Amalina aku masih tk percaya ah
mcm mepek kaunyer storyline n i asked a bunch of qns bout him
u went blur n it seems dat u don't even noe a single thing
thirdly, Mr Faizal's son was so cute
argghhh i have a crush on the orange shirt (see pics)
damn i just want to hug him n pinch his cheeks
CUTE CUTE CUTE
n lastly i enjoyed going out with lil miss gang - syakirah not in eh

Yesterday 09 oct
had two outings
watch movie was the first part
'cloudy with a chance of meatball'
buying the ticket was the embarassing part
shhh Hajar n Fatheema tau diam jek
den rush home kemas rumah nk berraya
waited for them till i get bored n my eyes kept closing
so traveled here n there
hahakz Muadz, ckp Justin Bieber sudah pelat
itu pun tk tau ckp
n yes Amalina kau terlebih emo
oh n n n Haziqah sedap kau nyer nugget n etc lain kali ta pau k?!
Amirul was the most happening guy of the day
Larkin ke per
he nvr fail to make us laugh
the day was fulled with kecoh, kekek, kental n ke to the max

Dis year raya agreed tiring
go out raya alot
except dear's side
how much he wanted me to go with him but i was busy hanging out
n forgotten to wish
Happy Happy third month(winks)
k pics below not according to order

2009-10-07T13:41:00.000-07:00

He-loo!
wahhh october already
2 more days n 11 days more to a new age
hoping something big good happening
few hours ago had just taken art n maths paper 2
arggh... art can't i get any better any on this
ok so, i did not bring sharpener n guess how did i colour
well the beginning was good/ok
but in the middle of colouring
the tip of a colour pencil
became shorter n shorter
den my hands started to wet how great?!
the drawing was picture perfect/nice(serious)
but the colours ruined it(grrr)
"ahhh forget it"
maths paper 2 was fun(hehe)
still can't believe Raudhah n Hajar
did not complete their graph

6 Oct was mum's b'dae
gave her the present on 5 oct before advance
well my hopes n wishes came from the heart
only god noes wat is kept in there
yest. Amalina did prep work with me too in my house
n surfing the web
"eh libra is the master of seduction ah(hwahwa) n gemini compatible ah dgn libra
tapi tk sudi eh nk amik wats yours(hahakz)"

Oh n pics raya will be posted tomorrow insyallah

2009-10-05T12:39:00.000-07:00

He-loooo!
came back from skooling
n yest raya so dat will be elaborating more on the next post
but for now i wish to talk about me
n yes me, getting to noe me better in dis blog
lets start:

Name: Nur Sharifah Nadhirah :)
Aka: ShaNad(formed by sis)
An eng name wished to have: Franchise(for some reason)
Horoscope: Libra - Diplomatic, Graceful, Peaceful, Idealistic, Hospitable
What it means for friendship:

Libras love excitement, new situations, adventure and the unusual. They make friends with people from all walks of life and they are always up to something new and exciting with enthusiasm. Libras are great at getting along with people, everyone likes a Libra. They are all about partnerships and groups, they are the glue that hold a group together because they are the ones responsible for keeping harmony and peace. Libras have mastered the art of relationships, not just romantic but business, personal, and family relationships just to name a few. No one is able to see another person's point of view better then a Libra. :D(i like dis better n it's already true, find yours too in http://zodiac-signs-astrology.com)

Height: still growing on trying to be taller den Amalina(hahakz)
Hair colour: Black
Eye colour: Little on dark brown n black
Race: Peranakan(joking) 'Boyanese n Javanese'

How would u describe yourself in three words: Funny, childish n friendly
What do your friends describe you in three words: Asked Hajar n she said wild, funny n creative
Where were you born: Where a planet sustain life(hees)
Where do you live: Somewhere here or there
Who do you live with: My one n only family where I can provide love n care for(awww...)

Worst moment of your life: Ummmm... I had to walk over a huge fat live cat in one of the kampung house i went too to just go out of the house n during dat years i was scared of cats, imagine how i get to go out!?
Best moment of life: There are alot but let me just give you three, firstly i step into dis world, secondly when i was lost during an age of 6 years old, I was brave enough to go home alone from orchard to admiralty. Like an angel brought me home (believe it or not it's your choice) n lastly i have found my twin!

Pin up: What? photograph to a wall?
What couldn't you live without: Parents, my pillow, mates n oxygen :p
What is the most important thing that life has taught you: Time past by very fast before u knew it 1 second has past so cherish every second even the last.
What is your quote: Live, Laugh and Learn n Apreciate everything before you know it's all gone
What would you most like to change about yourself: I rather not change anything n accept what has being given from god ;))

What makes you gagaga - laugh: Really funny stuffs or when i'm feeling very happy I laugh almost in everything
What do you do when you are feeling bored: Sleep, talk alone and eat
What do you do to cheer yourself up: Music or smell my pillow(serious!)
What's your best subject in skool: I donnoe
What kind of people whom u dislike: Fake, shallow, hypocrites n backstabber

Fave book: Mates, Dates guide to life
Fave colour: Yellow(bright enough to like dis)
Fave movie: Transformers(arggh... can't wait for the trilogy)
Celeb crush: Obssesed with Shia labeouf
Goals: For now pass all my subjects(insyallah amin)
How long does it take to do dis: For me days(joking) only 2 hours
Watcha doin': Posting

Sry for the long blablablas!

2009-09-30T19:11:00.000-07:00

Helo!
sry for the long lost update
being busy with preparation of E-O-Y(hees)
so last sunday had open house in Fatheema's house
n it was quite of a lil miss gang togetherness
except dat Azirah had to head home fast
so left us!
we did feasting, watching movies, playing, photo capturing
n esp. chatting non-stop bout celebs n .....
till 5

Yest. went out with amalina n fatheema to cwp
studying but it was corrupted n so we went shopping
mostly on the shades dat we spent our time n money on it
i bought it n guarantee lawa(wee)
oh i did a survey from my storybook on wat do boys want:
1. Good looks
2. Confidence
3. Enthusiasm
4. Intelligence
5. Sense of humour
6. Patience and warmth
7. Generosity
(nc16)
8. Great boobs
9. Great legs
10. Great ass(k wateva)

In the book it say dat good looks is wat mostly they wanted but oh no in my class due to the horniness most boys want great BOOBS!(unmatured to be guaranteed)(hahas)
e.g Shao jiang wanted great boobs n legs while Wei xin he talk craps n Yen liang the most greedy person i've ever seen he wants all of the above. (hahakz)

Damn forget about the above it's all lame or an f.y.i in case
n hey boys most girls want a sense of humour not some rich type of guy ok!
'hear dat my dear'

2dae went out again with Hajar to Azirah's place again to study n again they didn't complete all of the syllabus den we went off to cwp n yes Hajar had bought shades too(yeah yeah) she just love me to shop on her fashions... hahakz kidding
but i did shop on her with lots of noise(i like!)
we ate in banquet n talk with her on sumting dat me n her just can't stand
had lots of fun with my ladies dis few days